hi everyone. i hope your all well and keeping safe. i hope you all have nice summer. but i am sorry for this. but i justed want people to know why i find it hard sometimes to chat and talk. and why i fav. but i dont mean to be a bully or fav lot. i just like most art. form general to mature..
i am feeling a bit mixed right now. and i feel i need to get some off my chest. i am sorry/.
i been getting a lot of negatively on da latery i dont know why. sad to say. . for being me being bullied on da and having odd things said and posted and comments. i seem to be getting a lot of negativity lately.
it is very strange. normal have stuck a happy time on her. i never been bullied on the internet before . never thought it would follow me here to da. but they are sad to say they are. bugging me. sad to say and it hurts..
i think i know who is be hind it. but i cant be 100 percent sure. at this time.
but i do struggle a lot i know that ,x trust me i do know. thanks. from my own personal experiences.
i am kind of shy. when dealing with the other sex specially . i try to be chilled but i get confused and complex to how to interact with out being awkward odd or shy,
i say things i dont mean. but they come out so wrong i dont mean it to come out that way i am sorry for any harm done by my mouth.
and i get even more confused and they get flustered and i get told off i dont blame you. or them. if i done harm i do all in my power to make amess with you. i truly will.i will do better and i try to improve and i try to learn from my errors and faults. i do all i can to make it right with all parties involved truly will do my very personal best for you and everyone. . . i dill try to improve with my awkwardness and i get all messed up.
and normally leaves to some one being hurt most times myself but i know i have hurt others i never intended to ever honest. .
but i like to be careful and take my time when interacting with the other sex. as i been in some awkward situations and i dont know what to say or how to put it with out being like a complete ass of a noob in how to be normal.,
and it comes out mixed and jumbled and confusing. and they go what the hell. does not help i cant spell and i cant put my words into sense or sentences with the right correction on the right subject at hand.
which is why i fav now and i rarely comment. as i mean well. if i like something in the past. i normally i loved or liked it. but when i comment it lead to heartache, and normally lead to its own issues. which i stopped commenting as i feel it makes more work. but i never commented or fav if i did not like. why hurt someone if you dont like what you see.
let others say what they like and what the love bout it. but now i personally dont really comment. it has gotten into such more stress than it needs to be. . i am still trying to apologies to some artiest for my words. when they meant to be kind and caring and thoughtful and to inspire them to do more art and get better and to improve there gift and talents and to be a friend. had to have some thing in common. but most of my comments came out like what the hell specially in the early 2000's but i normally started with how are you. are you well. how is your day and how is the family it is normally away for my brain to get thinking and typing it seems to be more friendly and formal. and to be myself. but people questioned and said why ask that.. why ask about my family why ask about my health. why ask that, are you mad are you insane.
i know i am not easy to understand and stuff. i do struggle i know that truely i do honestly . i do try to get my words out as i see them and how i want them to come out. in the way i want them too. but i get stuff like saying your a pev your a freak. go and die.. your weird your odd. your a freak so on. i know i am not normal. but i do my best to be so and to act and get on and to be honest and true. but i do try. but it seems i fail and fall when it is more important time right then and i just mess up. in the most colossal fuck up in history. i can be odd. i know that. i can be shy . i know that too. but i do try my best to be human. human can make errors. i am not jesious. would be easier i admit.
i try to be normal but i am special needs. i do struggle with humor and jokes. i do struggle grammer. and wording. i struggle with depression and metal health. i do try to make everyone fell welcome and be accounted for. i try to make friends even my axinty and mentle health gets in the way. specailly with my add adhd and ocd and dislecxia and dispreca and my AS. i do try. i feel DA is worth fighting for and to show are that people can see. and admire. i do try my hardest. i do feel so proud to be on DA. and DA is home for me to be me for who i am.
but this bulling makes it so harsh and evil and hostile. but DA has helped me so much, so please understand me a little better. or let me know and tell me if i made errors and if i upset people. please i do what i can to make it work and make it better and to put it right. but i do my best to make people feel welcome and feel appreciated it. and for them to stand tall and be accounted for. DA is home to so many. please lets make it better. or at least try to.
(hi everyone. i dont mean to be rude or be a dick.or a pain is the royal ass. but i dont normally need to vent i am sorry. but i feel lost and confused right now. i am so sorry but i had to get this off my chest thanks x i hope you are all well. thanks again x )
( thanks again for your support and understand and your kindness and understanding and patience. i do really approacted everything thing and what people think. i am so grateful and honoured to be a member. but please dont judge me for being me. if i made you upset or made a error please tell me. and let me know. i do all in my power to put it right thanks so much everyone. you been so kind and good to me please dont make it harder than it has to be thanks.)
i do appreciate everything. i just seem to make more errors and misteaks than before. but i do try. but i cant seem to be myself. and when it comes to interacting. i just seem to mess up more that most. i get confused and shy and scared all at the same time. i become jelly and the world falls away from my feet. i am sorry i am truely am.
i am sorry for any harm or for any trouble caused by me and my awkwardness.
thanks so much. thanks again
yes i am male sad to say but i wish i was not i think i find it easy to talk to other sex if i was one. but i could be thinking to much of it.
thanks again for reading and kind your time and thoughts and prayers. you keep me going and keeps me well and happy i appreciated you all. thanks again. i cant thank you enough, thanks for the links and for the comments. i am sorry i dont comment or reply like i should. but i do try to. but i am now scared more than before. i do fav a lot i know i do. but if i dont fav either i do like it or i dont agree or clearly i have not seen yet. but hopefully i will. at some point hopefully sooner than later. i know i fav 1000s a day. but if i dont like i dont comment why bring people down and hurt them when there is no point or any need to,
i hope you are all well and keeping safe. have a nice day and nice evening and nice night and nice weekend. i hope your summer goes. well. i hope you all get some sun, and some nice food and time away some where safe and warm. thanks again. please take care be safe best wishes and high regards daniel hudson.
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thanks again,, i do treasure each and everyone one of you. and god bless DA and all it members. i hope to do a another post less dire next time. thanks again for reading god bless. be safe. bye. for the Horse. i mean for the horde. in the world of art. there is no art with out colour in the world. you members bring the art out. and each day is blessing with such talented and gifted members. please keep the art up. with out art there is no colour. look forward to seeing more of your work soon. thanks again.
